I Own This Place

Pregnant Pause (22 weeks)

Last week I was fat. This week I’m just downright pregnant. Really, really pregnant. Swelling feet, bulbous belly, achy back, well greased tear ducts. I think it’s no coincidence that my hardcore attack of pregnancy should hit the same week that we are finally giving birth to the beginnings of our new life, in our new house. Now that the deed is done, the moving … Continue reading Pregnant Pause (22 weeks)

Big Bad Pregnant Mama

Fat (21 weeks)

I have a hard time gaining weight. I don’t mean physically, of course – my running obsession has its roots in what was a heartbreaking late-twenties metabolic shift that made putting on weight about as easy as opening the refrigerator door. I mean I have a hard time gaining weight mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and in all the other ways available that might make my fattening … Continue reading Fat (21 weeks)

Pregnant Feet

Mom at Work (20 weeks)

Portrait of me as a professional woman: running the meeting in high-heeled booties and a tailored dress; leather bound iPad in one hand, shiny travel mug latte in the other, brown leather tote keeping all my handouts clean and in order; hair tousled to perfection, skin blotted to natural matte, shiny red lips; articulate to a T. Portrait of me as a mother to a … Continue reading Mom at Work (20 weeks)

All Grown Up Nowhere To Go

Take it or leave it (18 weeks)

I dreamt the other night that I was pregnant with four children. Not quadruplets, but four separate children in four separate embryos, each due one month after the other. I was initially shocked, then horrified to have become a real life science fiction movie, then just plain worried – worried about how my body would handle all those births, how it would support so many … Continue reading Take it or leave it (18 weeks)

Tuck Me In

Tuck Me In (17 weeks)

It wasn’t until my sixteen-week visit (which involved surprisingly more testing and checking than I had remembered or anticipated) that my OB finally came out with the truth – the second time sucks. Or to be more specific, with each successive pregnancy comes progressively more discomfort, due both to physical factors and basic “your life is just harder now” factors. More round ligament pain, less … Continue reading Tuck Me In (17 weeks)

Big Sis

Big Sister, Little Sister (15 weeks)

We’re always told that being a parent is full of surprises. And it is, of course. The surprise of how little sleep you can survive on. The surprise of just how much you’re actually capable of loving another human being. The surprise of how quickly it goes – especially compared to the molasses pace life seemed to move at when we were actually growing up. … Continue reading Big Sister, Little Sister (15 weeks)